Only 3 more days until I get to see S. again. I cant tell you how excited I am to go back. I was a bit worried because I was going to have to find a way from the airport home, but S. managed to get the day off just so he could spend time with me. Just the thought of it makes me ecstatic! Finally after 6 weeks the day is finally quickly approaching. And I couldn’t be happier
And so my life continues…
Well things are getting back to normal. I sometimes mosey around my day with a black cloud over my head, but I have slowly had that cloud lighten… expect of course when I am on my period. Then I can cry for hours about nothing at all. But at this point all I really want is to go home. I miss S. This past month has been the longest time I have been away from him, besides last summer, but technically that doesn’t count. I just want everything to go back to how it was. I want to start up my summer job, I want to figure out my life back home. Right now I feel like my life is on pause. Nothing significant is really happening. I mean I get to hang out with my girlfriends whom I love very much and will miss dearly when I go home. But I don’t feel like I am getting anywhere here. I feel like it’s time to get up and get going.
Thinking about it, I was ready before to live here for the summer, where I thought was home. But one I got the job offer back by my school, I had to take it. And I excitedly welcome the experience. I just really miss S.
And so my life continues…
Well hello again. I hate to do this to you, especially when everything was going so well. Like I have said before this is more of a coping mechanism for my life, an online diary if you will. So it’s about time for another entry. I’ll start with the good news…
School started up again since I last spoke, everything is well with that, of course it’s a little stressful managing classes, homework and grades. But it always works out in the end. S. and I are still happier then ever, seems we just get stronger as time moves on. he makes me really happy, keeps me grounded and understands my problems, and even when he doesn’t he tries to. I love the guy to death. Also I have some side projects that have recently blown up, completely increasing my work load, but its all worth it, if it works out. I got a co-op job and I will be working during the summer doing something I enjoy very much and will be able to see S. the entire time, which I’m excited about, don’t know how I feel about having to live with him and his roommates for three months, but I’m sure I’ll manage. And again my life is slightly consumed with finding a house for next year.
Aside from all that, currently studying for final exams and making my way to finishing off the University year.
Now here is for the not so pleasing stuff. Unfortunately, life doesn’t always go as planned and, in midst of all this chaos and craziness, I have my uncle come over to my place, have me call my dad, getting news of my 16 year old cousins passing. My heart stopped, I don’t think I have ever been so heartbroken. Such potential, he was the kind of person that you loved immediately because of his quirks, funny remarks and goofy faces. I can’t explain how much I love and will miss him, and how sad I am that he felt that he couldn’t be with us any longer. I hate to think he felt like he was going through life alone and he couldn’t talk to any of us. I remember when we would play together as kids, trick his sister into doing silly stuff, fight over who gets to play pokemon on the gameboy. He will be forever missed and loved.
And so my life continues…
I’m stressed… nuff said
And so my life continues…
I must admit, I’m a little homesick. Finished my last final last night at 8pm and now I’m waiting for my flight in the airport recapping on my first term. All in all it was a good year, S. shocked me coming back in September and he continues to everyday, courses are finished and I feel like I’m leaving the year on a positive note! As for that, last night before my exam I received a call from S. telling me that he hopes I am wearing something nice, I am immediately shocked and confused until he goes to tell me that he wants to take me out in celebration of being done. And now I’m a giddy school girl writing my exam as fast as possible so I can get to his house and see him! When I get there I see he has roses and chocolates for me… certainly not what I expect from S. so I again get all excited and giddy ( Moments like those are what make me love S. so much more) then he takes me out to dinner and we just talk, laugh and goof off. It’s great to know that S. can do something special every once in a while, and certainly surprise me. Wasn’t expecting anything! I love my boyfriend, and that night we talked about where we were and how to make things better. Going to miss the guy for the break though that’s for sure! But that just makes you stronger, right?
And so my life continues…
So, things are going swell, nothing too exciting to comment about… although last week S. and I had our first official “fight?” as a couple, I didn’t want to antagonize it as it was a little thing that finally made me broach the subject. But once the thing was said, we discussed it, and left it…. then because he left my question unanswered, I broached the subject again in a different way. This time he responded, and we talked about it, it’s funny cause apart from the fact that I know how S. argues and how he debates topics and despite the fact that he knows how I argue as well, it was a very well dysfunctional, until he calmed down and realized that he wasn’t hearing me out. Once he clearly stated what I asked him to do in his own words thinking he came up with it did he understand.
But hey, if he needs to think that he came up with the solution in order for him to fix the problem, I’m totally ok with that. At this point in time, he has been taking initiative to fix it and everything is swell!!
And so my life continues…
